Friday, May 12, 2006

Late Night

I know I haven't blogged in a while so I don't know who will read this it is Friday night about midnight and I am still awake. This has been a hard week for me I have always had confidence in myself when it comes to work I have always just known how to get the job done no matter what it is from fixing a car to troubleshooting a multi relay high voltage electrical panel I guess I inherited that gene from my dad but this past week I have gotten into my new role with the company I work for and I have been completely overwhelmed I have been working a lot of hours and still am not getting things done. All my co-workers say I am doing great and they seem to be sincere but I do not feel any self satisfaction on top of that my dad started working on a job for my brother in Nevada.... This really bothers me I have never really liked terry and I don't think he realizes dad is getting older and needs to watched over I am scared dad will push himself too hard and it will be my fault and something bad will happen the only time terry ever calls is if he needs money and he never even tries to pay it back. I called dad the other day just to see what he was doing he said he was pouring concrete he is 72 years old he shouldn't be doing that I hope that I am wrong about terry and dad is taking it easy I don't know how I would take it if something happened