Friday, May 12, 2006

Late Night

I know I haven't blogged in a while so I don't know who will read this it is Friday night about midnight and I am still awake. This has been a hard week for me I have always had confidence in myself when it comes to work I have always just known how to get the job done no matter what it is from fixing a car to troubleshooting a multi relay high voltage electrical panel I guess I inherited that gene from my dad but this past week I have gotten into my new role with the company I work for and I have been completely overwhelmed I have been working a lot of hours and still am not getting things done. All my co-workers say I am doing great and they seem to be sincere but I do not feel any self satisfaction on top of that my dad started working on a job for my brother in Nevada.... This really bothers me I have never really liked terry and I don't think he realizes dad is getting older and needs to watched over I am scared dad will push himself too hard and it will be my fault and something bad will happen the only time terry ever calls is if he needs money and he never even tries to pay it back. I called dad the other day just to see what he was doing he said he was pouring concrete he is 72 years old he shouldn't be doing that I hope that I am wrong about terry and dad is taking it easy I don't know how I would take it if something happened

Saturday, January 14, 2006

Guilty pleasures

I have been tagged by heidi for my guilty pleasures......................

1. I love the fried cheese curds at kfc i know they are really good for me and healthy but i like them any way favorite candy is peanut butter cups i love them i like to take my time eating them and when i am done i always want more when i go to old sac i always have to get a white choclate one from the candy shop very tasty

3. i like to sit out in my office drink beer and listen to my music alone, been doing it a lot more lately, not sure if thats good or bad

4. i loves my wifes body...........................enough said

5. I love to shoot guns not for hunting nessecarily but just at targets or shooting skeet it is fun it relaxes me and it energizes me i love it

I tag heather

Saturday, January 07, 2006


Fear is dying
fear is happiness
fear is living
fear is sadness
fear is trying
fear is progress
fear is losing
fear is loneliness
fear is failing
fear is love


" The hardest prison from which to escape is that of your mind" - anonymous

I saw this spray painted on a wall near my work just thought I would share it made sense to me

Friday, January 06, 2006

Friggin Weirdo

o.k. heather tagged me for 5 weird facts about me here they go..........................................

1. I love peanut butter on my biscuts and gravy it is yummy in fact i wont uasually eat them with out peanut butter i have ate B and G that way since i was a kid also I will only eat pancakes with peanut butter and syrup

2.maybe this isnt that weird but i refuse to litter even a straw wrapper I dont really believe in karma but i think its bad karma to litter and besides there is always a garbage can everywhere you go if you litter its cause you are lazy

3. I like kelly clarkson I am not gay i swear my wife will attest to that i just think that girl can sing i like everything i have heard from her

4. i like to mix reeses pieces and junior mints together and eat them i dunno the flavor combonation is really good mmmmmmmmmmmmm minty peanutbutterey yum

5. I like to walk in the rain it feels good and refreshing i lets my mind open up and i can get some good thinking time in

I am tagging joe montana, michael jackson, and carroTTop

Saturday, December 31, 2005


New Years Resolutions

1. get down to 250
2. be more positive
3. learn to love myself
4. read a lot more
5. make my wife smile everyday more than once
6. be a better father
7. stop caring about what other people think
8. be smarter with finances
9. ride my motorcycle more
10. go to vegas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, November 26, 2005

Killing my shadow

O.K. Here is another one of my poems let me know what u think it is one of my favorites



I am being followed by a maniac,
A man with a murderous rage
He is with me every day
a man I am NOT willing to engage

Confrontation is impossible
He knows my every move
Only when darkness falls
Can his presence I remove

He threatens my innocence,
The pureness I portray
He means me no harm
Only my enemies are his prey

He should be a friend in this lonely world
A comfort to see when all else disappears
Now he has come to test my sanity
And validate my greatest fears

He brings out the rage inside me
The revenge I swore I was above
The hate buried deep inside
And all the feelings I thought I was free of

I have to find the courage
To kill the man on my tail
For he will surly overtake me
With a vengeance if I fail

The battle will be hard and long
But I wont have to wonder where he will be
Everywhere I go I see him there
The evil twin that resembles me

Tuesday, November 22, 2005


Noelles flight was cancelled tonight cause of fog I was really looking forward to seeing her in the morning since aug.13 i have seen her for about 12 hours i cannot describe how fucked up this is i dunno how i am going to do this there is another fligh tomorrow at 930 pm but no gaurentee that wont be cancelled as well. I fell like i left her, let her down like now maybe i made the wrong decision by letting them move there i have alway said we will be there soon but it has never seemed so far away never relized how much i need her with me, but its too late now. i am so tired i have always been plagued with bad decisions but i think i really fucked up this time